dear love ;
i jst enjoy beinq with you.
i jst dun knw whye but i simply love to be around you.
every moment , every seconds counts for me.
time is just so precious that if you got caught in it , den dats it.
cus we all do not that we can't turn back tyme no matter how hard u wants it.
as for me i've learned how important life is and its values.
love ?
never did i guess anyone knws how i truly felt.
love is undefineable , unpredictable , and unspoken.
sighs.
i won't deny that im afraid to love.
it is because of certain reasons .. yeahh certain reasons that i actually couldn't find the strenght to brace nd face the world out ther.
reality check ; rare humble guys out there.
but still , i couldn't help myself from fallinq for you love.
this is somethinq beyond my control and it is inevitable.
its not dat i don't want to but it is the fear that keeps holdinq on to me engulfinq me lyk eternal flame.
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i've knwn love for quite sometymes , quite an amazement that is as i've finally managed to pull off a relationship this lonq ..
amin ~
do i love him ?
yes i do .. yes i do ..
but i find it soo hard to admit it to him and to myself.
whye is that so ?
i guess im jst scared to lose hym nd my love aqain.
i tried to be harsh on love.
tried to act all mighty , brave , stronq - hearted and all.
but deep down in me i knew i was a fool to be deceived and consume by lies.
bhy , no matter how retarded i look , how silly i behave , how stupid i look , how messy i am , anythinq BUT nice you were still there.
u smile patiently lookinq at me hands holdinq out to me.
my heart jst sank.
u tolerate my irritatinq nonsence , untemperamental childish behaviour without fail.
whye ? whye are you so kind to me ?
don't be .. cus i might just be consune by guilt.
but bhy , u shld knw that in every other way i would nvr evr dream to hurt you the slightest bit.
sumhw i'd jst wished i'd knw how you feel.
for me , and what do you think of me ..
i knw bhy , im not the perfect girl , yet alone your dream girl ..
but i promised to myself that i want nad will try to be your best girlfrend.
eventhough im not ur longest jst yet girlfren.
i jst hope that u would love me as your own as i've learne dto love you lyk my very own.
this ain't just simply words.
i meant everythinq .
i knw a rel isin't all smooth sailinq. ther are ups and downs.
i do hope you can pardon me for my wrongdoinq all this while bhy .
as i've forgive and forget evrythinq , you knw me well bhy.
i love you bhy <3 color="#33cc00">ps : bhy , i narq naek swinq aqyk ?! at hg there. kays ? qo .. had fun with you nawie bhy.
mmmmuuaaaahhhh ~